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[cobbledtogetherenvy]

[No recording. Envy doesn't want to talk to any stupid humans.]

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[cobbledtogetherenvy]

[He knows they've had this conversation before. Sure, he's missing, what, the better part of a year? But the time didn't pass for him like it did everybody else. He can see why it'd fade from a painfully organic human brain, but to him he was on the barge and feeling more or less like this... weeks ago.]

That was my last idea. The false gate of truth. It opens to nothing and nowhere. Failed experiment. But the admiral and his precious little boat wouldn't even let me have the fucking nonexistence.

[atowncalledtreffy]

No, he fucking won't. Because he's a greedy asshole who wants your life and your allegiance.

If you want to fade from this ship, being everyone's whipping boy is the best way to fail. I'm trying to get you what you want.

[cobbledtogetherenvy]

[That feels like it must be an exaggeration. Two people who'll be back before the day's out. Fine, people around here love indignation. But two people can't have that many friends.]

And why is... your cabin supposed to change that?

[atowncalledtreffy]

Because I hate you, and nobody would think to look for you there.

I'm in Johann's cabin. Take mine; do what the fuck you want to it, I don't care. But use it to fade away; the way to lose the Admiral's attention is to be less interesting. You blow up a part of the deck, it pisses everyone off, and now everyone gets involved in your fucking redemption.

Fade away into obscurity, you'll disappear into nonexistence.

[cobbledtogetherenvy]

The deck blew up?

[Huh. Well. He knew the circle would be unstable. Pity. He should have done it somewhere more interesting.]

I already have a cabin I don't use.

[atowncalledtreffy]

Yeah. A lot of people died or got stuck in your hole. Infirmary was fucking packed, congratulations.

One that no one else knows about?

[cobbledtogetherenvy]

I don't actually know where it is, but it was at the bottom of the ship last time. It's probably there again.

[atowncalledtreffy]

All right.

When your Zero door unlocks, I'll be there to walk you, make sure you don't get set on fire along the way or something.

[cobbledtogetherenvy]

Wish you wouldn't.

[atowncalledtreffy]

Yeah, same here.

Fucking wait for me, all right?

[cobbledtogetherenvy]

I don't have anywhere better to be.

[He really would stay in Zero indefinitely. It's wonderfully quiet.]

[atowncalledtreffy]

Mmn.

You might be Admiral-cursed too when you come out. Not my doing.

If you see a blonde-haired guy in an eyepatch hanging around, that's my inmate Dimitri. He'll be shadowing me a bit.

[cobbledtogetherenvy]

Oh, I know him.

[atowncalledtreffy]

Envy, jesus christ.

[cobbledtogetherenvy]

I barely started that fight.

[atowncalledtreffy]

...Actually, I believe that.

[cobbledtogetherenvy]

Anyway. You could always both leave me alone.

[atowncalledtreffy]

When you get a temporary or permanent warden, we will. Three or four days from now, usually.

[cobbledtogetherenvy]

So the same time I get kicked out of here?

[atowncalledtreffy]

Yeah. Maybe a little after, if they need and want our help.

Do you even give a shit about whether you're in pain or not?

[cobbledtogetherenvy]

You have a nervous system that won't let you absorb any more of you can help it. After a point, anyway. It's why torture doesn't do anything. I feel it. All that happens is I don't like it.

[atowncalledtreffy]

Mn.

People here can be evil-minded and creative.

[cobbledtogetherenvy]

Yeah, that's not new to me.

[atowncalledtreffy]

So I'm trying to help keep you from the worst of it.

[cobbledtogetherenvy]

Is agreeing the only way you'll stop talking about it?